It’s been so long since I last posted something here, I almost forgot that I even own a blog.

First UT of the semester has been over for quite some time, some of the results are out, and I’m not happy with mine. Maybe that is what complacency brings you. Good results in semester one without having the need of studying doesn’t equate to getting good results for semester 2 without studying either. It is time to wake up and work harder for my grades.

I’ve came to realise that some people just don’t appreciate things that you do for them. When you’re nice to them, they think you’re trying to win them over, and when you don’t help, they say you’re not helpful and all, just what on earth do they want?

Two faced freaks I’ll call them, they act so damn nice when they are with you, like angels from the sky, but behind you, they are the devils that make sure you are dragged into hell with them. Naïve and bimbotic I should say, when are they going to mature and be more realistic?

Tired of all these nonsense that I have to endure, sick of it, not going to be bothered by it anymore.

I’m not going to care anymore
cause you don’t deserve my attention hypocrites.

It’s almost one month since my last post. I’m getting drained slowly day after day.

All of a sudden, I feel like I’m running out of passion for stuff. Things are not going as smoothly as I thought it would be. Semester 2 was bad. I thought with the new classmates and a new fresh start might mean another fun semester with a totally fun class, but the modules are getting harder. Modules are so in depth now, with more understanding needed in order to solve the problems.

It’s been a long time since I last “chilled”, nearly a month since I last ate at my grandparents’ house. Instead of having things falling into its places, I have things breaking into pieces. Birthday was like celebrated but not as noisy and fun anymore, secondary school friends are drifting away. Schedule is so packed that I just cannot compress it.

Going home for dinner, getting lots of “A”s consecutively, hanging out with friends after school, watching movies, these has all became history for now. I hope that things are going to get better soon.

What I do now is practically, wake up, bathe, go to school, training, go back home and the whole cycle repeats. It’s so stressful for me, with so many things in my head which I need to and want to do. There are just too many things that I want to do and so little time for me to carry them out.

I’m losing passion, motivation and you…

I’m so exhausted now. On the way home, I was thinking about things, a lot of things. To be more exact, friendship was what I was thinking about.

Sometimes I really do get tired of it. The continuous battling of whom we should have in the clique, the constant gossiping of who you dislike and on, don’t you find it tiring? I’m starting to ponder, how long are these going to last? When am I going to get tired of this? Is it really right to do this kind of things behind someone else’s back?

Yes, it is a kind of relief, a way to vent our frustration for the person. But at the same time, when we are frustrated, we tend to not think logically, we do all sorts of stupid things. And in the meanwhile, we hurt the others surrounding us, breaking the bonds that we had, and destroying the friendship that we’ve spent so much time and effort building.

It’s so political, so tiring. I’ve already felt the drifting apart from you guys. We used to be so close, to the extend we do crazy things together, going for meals together, going to other classes for lunch, just so we get more time to chat about stupid stuff and going crazy over good songs.

All these things that we did together became history. When I was having this thought in my mind, I felt lost. It suddenly felt so surreal, as if I lost some family member. It just hit me so badly. We were so close, but now, we barely even talk now. Suddenly I felt so tired of this.

Maybe it’s my fault, maybe you guys are now thinking what kind of crap I’m talking about. But the problem is that I really still see you as a friend, no, closer than a friend, as if you’re my family. I’m really sick and tired of this politic, can’t we just be like how we used to? Maybe let us just open up and talk, I don’t mind knowing my problems, “Nobody is perfect”, and I bet I’m not the “Nobody” in the phrase.

I value you, my friend.
You’re a friend that I can trust, a friend that I want to trust and a friend I will trust.

Today was really a tiring day, partially because I slept late in the morning and woke up early. Less than 6 hours of sleep for today. It was a real tiring and long day.

To start the day off was water training. The training was just pure dope! I went up in a K4 for the first time! I was really excited when coach decided to put me in a K4, it was : cool, I’m going to get to try a K4. K4 was fun, so I was with Joey, Dory and Lynn. Our first configuration was Dory as the front man, me, Lynn and then Joey. Then we were paddling sets of 250m and the direction was just haywire. The boat was also tilting towards the left, but at least we were all able to paddle, like all four of us paddling and we only capsized 3 times in total for the whole day. After which coach changed the configuration to Dory as front man still, Joey, me and then Lynn. The direction was still haywire but maybe because of the water in the K4, the boat wasn’t really tilting as much anymore. And I tried a kick in the K4 to balance it, it was WOW!!

Ok, so training was just K4 250m sets and then we all went down in a T1 and paddled 250m for strokes and we did burst and I tried to maintain. But my shoulder was giving up on me, and I could only keep telling myself it’s going to end soon to keep the drive within. At least I did finish everything that was given to me! =)

We went to bathe but only to find out that the toilets at the stadium and gym were closed, so Joey, Ee Wern, Zixin and me went to Yishun swimming complex to bathe. And I didn’t bring a towel, I had to resort to borrowing Ee Wern’s towel! THANKS EE WERN A LOT! We had lunch at North Point’s food court, saw the seniors and nothing more? Haha, ok, I shall move on to write the spoiler for Phobia 2! =)

Basically, Phobia 2 have five parts, as if any of you don’t know.

The first part was named “Novice”. This part of the movie features this boy who committed a crime via the throwing of stones into windshield of incoming cars while him and his friend, accomplice, was on a motorbike. After the throwing of the stones, they normally steal the mobile phone of the car owner. The story went on showing him becoming a monk under the instructions of his mother. Nothing much was explained to why his mother did this to him in the beginning of the movie.

He was considered to be a rebellious kid, and he went on to eat the offerings and because of that he’ll suffer karma. The other monks who were trying to help him brought him to a cave where the priest normally meditate, and asked him to meditate there too. But I guess because of his guilt and the scary things happening around him in the cave, he left the cave and started running in the forest.

Only here did the remaining parts of the story begins to reveal. It appears to be his father that he threw the stone at. Not only did it cause a crash, it killed his father too. The whole story ended with the boy getting stoned so badly his face was beyond recognition. And I think he transformed into a palm tree, the tree the people in the village use to do rituals.

The story continued with a part called “Ward”. In this part, this young man was involved in a accident and injured both his legs so badly, I think he broke both his legs and was moved into a shared ward with an old man. After the family decided to pull away the plug for oxygen for him, weird things starts to happen to him.

Offering was made for the old man the night before he died, and in the middle of the night, the young man heard crunching sound. He went to pull the curtain separating the two beds. Suddenly, he sees the old man on top of him trying to strangle him to death. The nurse came in to calm him down and gave him a shot of tranquilizer.

Nothing good happened to him and he woke up only to see the old man standing on him again. This time, he wasn’t strangling him, he was literally vomiting blood on him. Pure gross because it came out of an old man’s mouth. The story ended with the old man scolding the nurse bitch and seeing the young man being wheeled out on a wheelchair with the nurse being in cahoots with them. (the old man possessed the young man)

Part three of the story “Backpackers”. A young Japanese couple went to Thailand to backpack. After several unsuccessful attempts by the girl to hitchhike, the guy decided to show the girl how the job should be done. He pulled out money and decided to hitchhike with money. A truck stopped for them and agreed to bring them to their destination.

Suddenly, weird banging noises could be heard at the back, and the driver decided to stop and see what’s wrong. Upon opening the back of the truck, all the passengers at the back were dead. Nothing was say towards why these people were at the back but as the couple realise something isn’t right, they went down to check only to see the driver and the guy moving corpse.

Out of the blue, the corpses started to stand and attacked the Japanese guy who was holding a gun. And it attacked him by biting, similar to what you see in zombie movies. So it comes the escaping part and in the end all died but with a twist at the ending. The guy who was considered “nice” was actually a drug trafficker. He forced all the people who died to swallow wraps of drugs including a small boy who eventually caused his death.

Forth story “Salvage” is about a female boss of a second hand car dealer. The story started out with her trying to sell a customer a car but there was this lady who drove into the place furious about her car. She threw the keys at her and told her that she was a liar for lying that the car has never been in an accident before however the car nearly cause her child to be killed.

The show just went on showing her alone in the office looking through the makeovers of the cars. Truth was beneath the new upholstery and shiny repainted exteriors each car holds a horrible past. With fatal accidents that gave rise to cars crashed so badly, the boss of the garage manages to do a makeover for all of them and make them look so new and from there sell these cars to other buyers.

Weird thing started to happen after this, with her child suddenly going missing in her garage, she decided to go look for her son all by herself in the middle of the night in a garage filled with cars which were involved in accidents. After seeing a man trying to sell her garlands, and a woman who had her stomach split open with her stomach and intestines flowing out after, she freaks out and drives away in her car. After her engine “chokes” she stops and went out of the car.

After seeing a shoe of her son on the road with blood dripping out beneath the engine, she lifts up the lid to see her son in the engine, dead.

Last story “In The End” was about the filming of the movie “Alone 2”. Alone is a horror movie about a twin (check up Wikipedia if you’re not sure, it’s nice too). Four guys were involved as the filming crew were friends. While shooting for the last scene, the ghost of the last scene for the movie falls so ill that she fainted while being in a scene where she has to crawl out from the dark. She was rushed to the hospital by one of the guys. At the hospital, the doctor says that she was dead. However at the filming scene, she was present and wants to finish up her scene in the movie.

The guy at the hospital then calls back to notify the other friends about her death, with the walkie talkie still switched on, they freaked out after hearing it. And left the ghost with the female lead actress. Upon deciding to continue filming as they think that is the reason to why the ghost came back, they move on to the filming by themselves.

The middle part is the funny part and they went off in a car and saw their friend. After getting their friend in the car, they sped off onto the highway to escape from the ghost, they saw the van of their friend, crashed. With the friend starting to bleed profusely at his head, they think he was also dead, just that he didn’t realise it.

With a twist of the story, both the ghost and the friend weren’t dead, it was just plain miscommunication. The doctor at the hospital actually had another twin. The ghost wasn’t dead, she just sneaked out of the hospital to return to the set to continue to filming. Neither was the guy friend dead his van was crashed when he wasn’t in the van.

But still, this is a horror film without a happy ending, all five of them were involved in a car accident and die. Why? Because the female lead actress was dosing off while driving, and yes the car crashed into them.

I can’t believe this! I’ve finished a blog this long! =) very accomplished day for me!

Never doubt the potential within you.

The day started out as per usual, training in school’s gym. Really tiring because both Joey and I increased weights! Haha =X (Joey didn’t want to increase! =P ) So after training was lunch, in school.

We then went off to town, due to last minute changes, we ended up at Somerset, Cineleisure, for movie, PHOBIA 2! I was so excited, but we were watching the 7 o’clock show. So we were really walking around just to waste time.

We went first to Gloria Jeans for the $3 chiller, I ordered the same old Cocoa Loco but it just taste different, not up to the standard. Then we walked to Takashimaya for dinner and I ate double cheeseburger! Hehe. But before the dinner and the movie, we were playing a fool at Takashimaya.

We went into stores like It’s More Than A Toy shop to play with the toys. Super damn fun, including the part where no one could figure out how to build that pyramid! Haha! Then we went to Art Friend and made lots of noise again.

So it was dinner, and then we met up with Wen Da for movie. So there were ten of us watching the movie, Koon Zhe, Joey, Zi Xin, Thomas, Yikee, Eric, Yi Peng, Wen Da, Hong Shan and me!! Haha. And ya, talking about Hong Shan, he stepped on my toe and broke the nail. Haha, it isn’t really painful as it sounds though. Haha! =)

Movie was great, there were five parts this time, ok, as if no one knows. Ok, not going to be a spoiler today, I’ll do the summary about the movie tomorrow, haha! =)

Results for modules are out today, and I’m really happy with my own results.
A101, Science – B
A113, Mathematics – B
G101, Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving – A
G103, Introduction to Communication Practice – B+
G105, Enterprise Skills – A
So my GPA should be 3.5 if I did calculate it correctly. I’m really proud about myself for my grades! Hehe!

Seriously sometimes I really wonder do people really understand the meaning of the words that they use. Do you really know the meaning of the word “BIMBO” Hey dude, if you don’t know the meaning of it, don’t use it. So what if you got an A2 for English, so what if you sound as if you’re good with all these slangs, I just despise you to the core. Because you don’t even bother checking out the meaning of the word before you use it. Now you just look like a big joker to me, because till now you still don’t know that it’s you where we find the entertainment within.

And to the pervert out there, stop the harassing towards Juliet. I don’t give a damn to how desperate you are, but for all I know, she doesn’t have any feelings towards you, at the very least, I’m talking about the positive feelings. I swear, if you continue the harassing, you’ll get slammed by her one day.

The joy within is hidden in you.

Everything is just as per normal except that I was coughing rather badly and am down with cold.

Training was fun today consider the fact that both Lynn and I didn’t capsize with her on a K2. It was our forth time on a K2, and I just realised today that we were taking high seats all along, that was why we were more stable today. And while paddling, we still thought we improved.

So paddling was better and nothing much about the training for today.

Thank you Eileen for piggy-backing me, thanks Eric for holding my bag when Eileen was piggy-backing me.

Sometimes I just wonder, is it too hard to just wait for everything and everyone? And I thought you were nice and considerate, but never did I know the word “wait” isn’t in your dictionary. Or maybe it’s just that we were not fit to do things with you.

Seriously, what’s the problem with you? I mean, I’m a not style star neither am I a popular figure, so why do you have to keep following the way I do things. You copied the way I type my sms, the way I type in MSN. Firstly you followed my likes, now you follow the way I do things, so what’s next, liking the guy I like as well? I’ve always have no problems in figuring out how people think and feel, but why are you like that? Or maybe I should say : “Why you are so horribly weird?”

Maybe like what he says, I think too much.

Today just isn’t the day. Firstly, the day definitely did not start out right; the day went on just fine, and ended with a pretty mundane finale.

We were all stuck at the interchange due to the last minute finding that the school gym isn’t open, I don’t know who we should blame, but definitely, the lack of communication resulted in this. It was our fault for not checking with the school if the gym was open; it was again our fault for not coming up with a backup plan fast enough given the fact that we had loads of time, I mean it, loads and loads of time for the planning, lastly, the carrying out of the backup plan just isn’t fast enough either.

Whatever that happened still did happen, so we just needed to carry on with the gym in the end. So Joey, Clarice, Dory, Cheng Sian, Lydia, Zi Jian, S.K., Esmond, Jon and I went to the gym at woodlands, the nearest to the school(thank goodness). So just gym-ed there and did the bridges and of course the jog and strides.

The tracks looked funny, but looks can be deceiving, and the tracks turned out to be pretty dangerous. It isn’t a playground for kids! There were humps on the tracks, and if you trip on it, of course you’re going to fall and most likely to go home with a bad bruise on the knee. So the tracks would really did look like a place with mountains if you’re as small as an ant.

Next was the gym, just one word to describe the gym – crowded. There were so many people in the gym, the weights and bars are different too. Suddenly, Joey and I missed the school’s gym with all our familiar looking weights and bars also not to mention the more spacious gym area. But still we did the gym. Joey and I did the gym together and we felt so tired after the session, really tired.

Went to bathe and when we went out, SK and Dory realised that their wallets were missing while buying the ice cream. So we went back to the pool to try to find it but to no avail. We could also hope for the best to happen. So we had lunch together and Joey and I left early for orchard to meet our parents.

So once we reached Orchard, we went separate ways. It was just the normal walking around and eating of finger food with my parents. And I went home with nothing. They didn’t want to buy me jeans! It’s ok, I’ll wait, I’m patient! (wink!) to end the day, we had dinner at home with food from the hawker centre near home.

So I finished up my sister’s invitations just now, I’m feeling so satisfied now. And she asked me about physics. The critical angle thing, she knows how bad I fare for physics but I tried my best, and it turned out that I was wrong after she finished reading her textbook clearly!

So I’m now at home going to finish this blog with another maybe like two more phrases like how I normally end my post?

Sometimes we just have to face the fact.
You’re just not up to it.

Was planning to post a long post for today, but then, sudden change of mind, so there wouldn’t be long long post for today!

Just finished designing my sister’s invitation cards for her band investiture and I feel so damn proud of myself because it is really very nice!

Listening to Korean songs as I’m typing my post. I would never ever get sick or tired of having them in repeat in my playlist! Sore throat’s back and I think I’m losing my voice soon, I just hope my annual lose-my-voice period is not anywhere soon.

Training is on as per usual even though it’s public holiday tomorrow! Hah, off to the gym for me tomorrow, ok, I should go to sleep, bye all!

Love, would it ever appear?