With every day coming to an end, it brings us closer to another mystery –the next day.

With every day ending, it means that we’re getting closer and closer to POL-ITE 2010. It’s really a very important event for us. We lost last year, lost to our worthy opponents by varying points causing a miss to the championships. This year, I really don’t wish to have it happen again.

Worrying about how well our opponents are doesn’t make anything better, instead it’ll bring us unnecessary stress and unwanted pressure for ourselves for they are the variation in the competition, a variation that we cannot control or change.

Improvements are sought after everywhere all the time, but it is up to us, the individual, to decide how much improvements we want to achieve in the very end. The amount of commitment and passion would affect the amount of improvements we get in the very end. Everyone wants tremendous improvement in performance, but how many would be able to attain it?

In the very end it’s ourselves we have to beat at the very least. If we cannot win ourselves, how are we going to win others? If we cannot beat our own personal best, how are we going to ensure bagging medals in races?

Life is often screwed up, but if life is too easy and simple for us all, wouldn’t it make us learn nothing and take everything in life for granted? Every obstacle is a challenge for us, and each time we overcome that challenge, it adds on to our own experience and brings us a notch higher in life.

When things are simple, we tend to take it for granted, thinking that things would stay the same forever. This is so not true, with us taking things for granted, we’ll never improve. We’ll never step out of our own comfort zone and aim for a peak.

Everyone’s born to do different things; some will end up achieving great things, while the others would just remain as some normal person. But everyone is bound to hit the rocks somewhere, some part in their very life. I hit mine quite recently, but I’ve decided to face it as an obstacle. It’s going to be an obstacle that would make me a better person in life.

Training intensity has intensified over the days gradually; it’s kind of normal looking at the days left before the competition. I really want this badly, like so badly I will do whatever is morally right to get it.

Training is now the most important thing to me, the thing that keeps me busy so I would be so tired to even care what you’re up to now. There’s so much I wished and I hoped, but there’s so much I know. I’m just sick and tired of trying, hoping that things will turn out well. It’s just too much and too naïve for me to think it that way. To me now, it’s me and my own crew in canoe that matters. They are going to take over your place, or at least, I rather things be that way.

Things are over, and I need to accept that as a fact. It doesn’t matter how you see me, it doesn’t matter who you want to be with, because I know, it just isn’t going to be me. Since you’ve moved on, you don’t have a say in me anymore.